The littel girl in me.

Dear girl of mine.

Where is this sadness coming from

Why do your Eyes look so sad

And your heart feels lonely and deprived

Because  of a visitor, Christmas!

Family's holiday.

Sweet girl we are a family you and I

Together we can do this, we can get trough

this day and survive it we are together.

we will soar on wings of self love

Because we know that together we are

You and I for now and always.

I know how difficult it is to put past pain behind

and move on. you are grown up now and yet the little

girl inside is steel crying out in fear and loneliness

This child needs me dear heart, gather her up in

your loving  arms and give her comfort

I know how much love you needed then and now.

I was the only one who knew how much this girl

In me needed of love, a hug, a cherished moment

things are different now, we are one strong and united

in our love for one another. together we can gather the

 courage to get past this lonely day intact, and victorious.

you and I . love you! let us decide to enjoy this day.

let us choose happiness.

Y.B

27 December 2013

.

Norma! reflection from life

Norma's memories of days gone by 

through storms and happiness in your life
From childhood to the evening of your life
there was one thing constant your boy.
Your beautiful boy,  hours with him so happy
when he roamed with you trough your life.

as the years went by the sun sank lower
And the evening of life was approaching
So as his evening, he didn't let the breezes
Chill his heart for you , some would have
But not your Boy, the light shined in his heart

His mothers faith and love was over him
Her prayers that god might keep her son
healthy, happy, full of grace, now when
He watches his Norma approaching her
Evening and can't recall the things that

Ones was , the boy is their. the angel's
Must be singing. for I think all the mothers
Of  the world are hearing the music
Such a beautiful music only a mother
And her boy can hear..

October 2013

Y.B

Don't allow toxic people around

keep toxic people away from you

It is to late they are brain washed and they don't
know-it ,  You will never fit in there family life
They were raised not having you as part of there
 Family , they don't want to welcome you to there
Home not for holidays or birthdays or any family
Gathering . can you live with that? you are just a
Stranger. girl you must go quietly in to the night

After two years of trying really hard
It is not working for me ,  wouldn't   except
To be treated like an outsider? that is the way
They want to treat me .  unacceptable to me .
I am me! and I don't base my self worth
On the view of people who treat me as if I am
 A contagious daises . not even my family

I don't have to be other than me to be worthy
My worthiness is just for being me! yolland!
I am a core of love, inner goodness, and a special
Beautiful light, and any one who doesn't see
Me in that light! please  stay away from me.
Loving my self  is not a one time event ,

It is a life time exercise, and an endless  going
Process of hard work for life. it is up to you yolland !
Rap  your self with a blanket of affection, respect, and
appreciation, begin every new day with reminding
your self of your wordiness over and over again
Get emotionally honest with your self  and be guided
By your intuition.

All of the answers comes from within, from
your gut. learn from your mistakes and your past
And move forward to the tomorrows. do what Honor's
And respect you! don't allow toxic people to bring you
Down even if the are family loved ones  and friends.
Love  them  all !  but be choosy of whom is welcome
In to your world,  and your  life no place for ABUSE!

Y.B

October 2013

LOVE @ your heart

Love is what makes the world go round

Having the chance to  love and be loved
Is our most treasured emotional bonds
And while love lost is also a reality of our life
There is so much reward in appreciating
The connection we have with others through
whom we are more fulfilled.

Please take just a minute to tell someone
Else that they are loved, and  make every
Effort to express yourself in positive words
and deeds that will uplift, and energise  the
Soul and spirit of all  relationships, and
when we are faced with circumstances


That challenges us, it's so important to take
A breath, pause for a moment to think of the
Bigger picture , and find opportunities to
Balance life's ups and downs with a fresh
Perspective. please except my messages
in your heart.

I appreciate your interest in this message
and I trust that you will keep it rapt in a golden
Valle placed in the chambers  of your heart
with a silvery tread you carve  love, love ,love
it is the power of the human survival

love is what makes the world go round
Love is what we all need to  feel for each other
Even just for a little time we may create a world
Of infinite harmony  we shale all  feel loved and
Respected.  

October 2013

Y.B

The power of loving your self





The power of loving  every part of yourself
Every part of your life, and every part of  your world

I had a dream to be loved

Will make you whole.
You will see the world and everything around you
with joy, comfort, sadness will be no more.

Weariness will be  rest, despair will become hope
loving my self will feel like a soft  misty rain
Will comfort me  as a rainbow or a sunshine
After the misty rain.

Dreaming of love from your family, your children
Or any one ells is no love, asking for love from others
Is no love. love is voluntarily given from the heart
It touches you so swift, and gently you are the only
One feeling its loving reassurance. and comfort

It sustains you through the hardest days
You can't demanded or force  any one to love you
You can force yourself to love you!!
It will feel like a dim twilight , a perfumed Oasis
Or a fountain singing to you

You and you alone can make yourself a live
You and you alone can cherish yourself
With dignified tenderness which  cane
Only be found in you, in your heart and spirit

 The heavens will open the gaits for you
You will see the darkness  turn in to a silver
Light the chambers of  your heart glider with
Sparkling Diamonds. little girl I have spread
My dreams under your feet, please believe

In loving yourself you are so beautiful
So made to be cherished adored and loved
till the end of time.
And many more Thanksgiving days.

YB

October 2013

A New bright Light

A happy moment!

 My life have sweetened!
you guys have opened windows
To a sunny  bright light in my life
You warmed my heart.
You have let in blazing sunlight
On my gently shaded life.

You have brought a bunch of joy
into my  quiet lonely  life you have
given me back life and hope
you are the best of bonuses
you are the gold at the end of my rainbow...

I have a heart to love you, a mind to
Understand you, ears to listen and arms
To hug. all at your disposal. for life.

You are my grandchildren A. Ch. and Nich
Thank you for the outing. a happy moment
Will it be repeated ?
Love you Nana.

18 August 2013

YB

Day Dreaming

Will I always  want to love , will he always love.



A summer moon

I can't read his heart, I can only read my heart.

This days my thoughts are as disordered as my

Black hair.  I wish I were close to love , as to be
Loved. so I can unlock the key to the secrete   

Garden of  love  beauty, passion, will be there.

Eyes! the window to the soul will show me  the way
 To passion in the heart, and love in the soul and spirit.

 

things given to us  from the heart. will they

Cease to be remembered beyond the world

We live in . sweet dream of mine!  will  we

Remember our dreams?  in  my perfect  world  

I waited for your soul to call  my name with love.
Until I could hear my heart beat crossing the get  

To the river of paradise.

 

For now my all and be all I shall hide myself

With in the bright light of  the moon,

 In a summer night. wile your  deep soul is

Reciting words of  love, and passion. what

A beautiful music, a harmony from the havens

We were together very little time. and yet

I believed it was infinity. hugs my sweet one.

 

August 4 2013

 

Y.B  

What is there left to say to you my boy!

What  is there left to say now,

I am tired chasing the impossible dream

As I promised U  your name is out from all
My righting,  it was important to you that
no one will know who my son is. you said to me
I am well known  I don't want people to get to
Know my dirty laundry, but you know who you are!
 It is O.K. by you to do wrong to your mother,
 As long as people would not know it.  is  it all about you?
 What a set of values you have been  thought!


 

All of Friday let  afternoon, you ripped my heart.
Just because I asked for your phone number
So I cane keep in touch with you my son.
You mad me regret the minute, how cruel are you?
to make me feel  so much pain and revolt.   the inside
Of my heart ! Curled tightly with pain, like a uterus
Anxious to  give birth.  and you,   no mercy! no heart!
My  baby boy how can he be so cruel?

And now in  this midnight, when desperately
I am in agony, in need of care, I realise  my life
Depends on me! only me ! I must speak to
You with words  that you can understand,
I am  giving  you this words with regret, I can't
Let you pain me anymore   with your arrogance,  and hate.
I can no longer look at the ferry tell wish of having
A relation with my Son baby.

You  Don't want  to have one .  in your  word,
only on  your  terms you will have one.
You want let me  have  your  phone number, or email.
I am not allowed  to contact  you , or email  you.
Only you  can contact me. toughs were your conditions!
You  want to treat me as if I am virus , or a bacterial
Disease, that could  make you  sick. sweet baby
The only disease I have I am Jewish mother  and proud of-it.

So let me make-it easy on you dearest son ,
For my broken heart can't and want allow  you
To  abuse me, or brake my heart anymore.
It is my life, my spirit and soul. I have to take care of!
you are playing with my emotions, it is my heart you
Are shredding to peace's. it is a matter of my survival.
For me  your mother,  moving through your world
As you want me to. it will be like moving motionless
Trough a bad dream.

That is not what I had in mind when I give you life.
Yesterday you taught me what is to be a nothing!
To  you.  in your Eyes I may be a nothing but in my
Eyes I  am very  valuable, worthy , and special human!
All the tears in the world can drop down my chicks,
And you want see them or feel them, to much hate!
In your heart. you can run from your reality but
You cant hide!

when a son has love in his heart! he learns how to
Appreciate and respect  all  other human being.
That includes his mother even if she is Jewish,
at the same time  he also learns to understand
Himself  better.
SON ! you have a long way to go. you  need help.
This will be the last time you bleed my heart, yet again!
 I guess you will have to do without me in your life
unless you change your attitude towards me! !!

5 July 2013

Y.B

Frug Frug Deloup the French man!

Poet



In the heart and soul  of the poet sunlight

 


Between last journey and this one

The fragile heart of mine could only

Think of  Mr. Frug - Deloup.

Looped around and around with no



Substance of what he is or what I was.


Frug- Frug-  Deloup;




I struck blindly the weakest part of  the poets - heart

The parts that are in  need of trust, security, and love.

Poet! what your life could not do in thousand weeks,


I did in a week.  this is my story , the story of a frugal me.

my blood slicked, my soul portentous, full of sorrow.

And my plan! nightmares, that would never  die

Not today or in all  tomorrows.

Poet;

Divested  it  by all the ashes of my dream.

In the debris of Mr. Frug- Frug Deloup,



the steel cold embers with aimless apathy.

in my garden full of blooming beautiful  flowers,

I felt the pathetic ashes of a dream Mr. Frug- Deloup .

Have promise, so now my fate has been decided.

Frug- Frug  Deloup;

I am a  dream of rats, a pretty scary dream of rats,

Honesty;  will be as far as the universe from my spirit.

I will nibble at you, take advantage of your heart,

Spirit and soul. I crawled up your legs, I chewed your food

Drunk your wine smelt your skin ,touched your hair..

I am a kind of a dream you wake up from with cold sweat....

Poet;

And when I woke up this morning

with the  sun shining in my heart my soul, and spirit.

Wile The rain coming down in buckets in Mr.  Frug- Deloups world.

All the voices in the world could call him now, but  the frugal  man

Would not hear them, he is counting his money,

The money he didn't spend  on Hotels , restaurants, Theatre ,

Museums, art gallery, or the play Cats; he said to expensive for him!
In the poets  world ! sunshine, sunlight, sun bright..

 

27  June 2013

Y.B

 



 

 

 



 





 







 

Anita the Lord was your shepherd.

Anita's light

To my beloved cousin Anita!

Beloved child of God!
You left us To be with the lord,
And the darkest  hours  are hear
For us, we try to see the unseen,
Your soul flowing in Haven.

your faith, and strength , inspired
Us all. your effort and love of God
Gave hope to life, to love, and joy
you always seek the good that is in
People, you believed in courage

You believed that  a  failure is
Not a  defeat until you stop trying
You never stopped trying  you placed
A candle light  in the darkest days of your
Fight with Cancer.. you stood up to a killer!

With bravery, strength  and courage  till the
Last moments; you believed that giving,
Makes living, more loving. you gave us love.
I am living you now knowing, that they are so many 
Tears  in my heart dripping. my heart ekes..
Anita! I love  you will miss U , for always in my heart..


Y.B

 May 17  2013   
    

In memory of Steven m schindler..

Our world has lost a bright star.

Steven a  shining light above

They will be more glider in universe,
For Stevens light will shine and sparkle,
For he is an angel now,  roaming in the havens.

Steven sweet heart! somehow out of all
The twists and turns our live could have
Taken it almost seems like we were given
A meant to be moment-to meet, to get to


Know each other and to set the stage for
A special togetherness, we build a friendship
With an invisible  tread witch would last
life,  and after death... good by  my friend!
For ever you will be my spiritual Gide.

Good by Steven may your Soul rest
In eternal peace..


April 3 2013

Y.B

Stephen M. Schindler - Rest in peace

Angel! Steven M. Schindler;






Angel voice hushed, with God is your home now. Whisper sweetly, and lovingly, to your late wife Eleanor and child Beth. that you loved so dearly. Surrender now with your pure heart, to be with them. I am here with you angels of mine, and all is right. In our abounding world, we all surround our souls to God.


Listen Angels! Steven speaks - he comes to calm you now, with a sodding and loving voice, he becomes your guiding light, he is a Star I made him one! Awake, asleep, he loved you so deep. you three souls will comfort us all... who walked your path. with  your wisdom you will grace the havens.


Steven core  of my faith in human, sweet spirit. You have become my guiding friend, a small voice in me reminds me of the silver linings to having you in my life. In this chaotic world of ours you were peace, grace. You made an unclear light forever shining.


A Star shining above Steven!

Thanks, my Angel !

Angels from high above, guard us all, with your compassion, courage, kindness, generosity and love... We learn from you. Your goodness can never be denied. Sweet Steven! my friend, fiancé in past, you are and have been the source of my strength and inspiration. Please my angel, stay by my side! Pure soul...

Y.B
March 27 2013

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Passover! Sade time for me

Hear gos again Passover is hear and I am

I miss you Momy

Yearning For your love Mommy, I turn to you for trust,
And you are not hear, I look to you for love,  empty space.
 You are  gone. Mommy,the pain is unbearable, I miss you
No one to inspire me, encourage me, give me answerer's,
For all that a child needs..only you could lift my spirit..


I wanted my world to be reassured by you.
my yesterdays , and my tomorrows, need
To have you near. but you were not in my world
to lift me up, to bring smiles in to my face,
And joy in to my heart .. I need you Mommy...

YB

18 March 2013

Waiting For You

If but for the brief time that we know each other,

Waiting for you

Our hearts were embraced.  all colours now are


Brighter, and hope now is engraved in our hearts.
Is happiness knocking on our doors?  yes yes yes!
I hope it's not  dreams that are sold, but can never
Be bought,


I am ready to by them.  are you? my heart tells me
That yes, Be that faith makes things possible,
But dafinetly  not easy. keep searching girl
That heart of mine,  it begs to let it guide in peace
Please heart tell me for certain, should I wait? for thee?
And my heart reply,  I never lie, take your time girl


Use your grace and  love, for to love and be loved
Is to feel the sun from both sides. love is a big word.
filled with spirit, emotions, joy, love is a  worthy gift.
Sooner or later you will be mine, and I will be yours
And we will be us. our  dreams will be shared never ending
For our  world will be a  better place  with our love...

Y.B

March 14 2013

Intuation and Knowledge within my Heart

Gait to heaven opened!
Where the shining full Moon and stars.

Intuition within my heart

With silvery  light , for me to stair at.
As the Orchid  in my vas  was looking  at me.
I have seen your light from heart tonight.



And I hoped  that  you will shine  for me.
Come dawn, you  miser!  where  gone,  but the
Orchid  was steel in  my vas  by my side.
No sorrow for your flight,  a golden sun light
Soon takes your place within my hopes and dreams.
My universe is again bright.


And now my heart is full of hope,
that hope,  feels bright, sparkling presence,
Silent yearning,  for  that  Mr. right ! not a  miser!
I have to be patient, the time is endless , countless
Hours will end. and I will let yesterday go.
For tomorrow to arrive with glory.


 I will keep the dream alive with an open heart
Will Bide calmly, trust   blindly. when day is done
Longing for you   my  men,  is not through.
I promise! the dream will reside in my heart for all tomorrows
Reflecting mirrored hope. for eternal love with the right one!

Y.B

June 1. 2013.

Committing the Golden Rule to Life not to memorys

My soul, spirit and heart in harmony

It takes the whole of life to master living.
I am somehow learning, that my journey is not
Completed, the last Paige is not written yet.
I steel have the faith that tomorrow will shine
My soul is a wondrous thing, it will clime up.

This inner progressiveness of understanding
Between my spirit,   and soul.  two parts of me
Is the  most beautiful thing; I found-it by looking
For it passionately, wishing for it, dreaming about it.
I know it needs a divine interference for it to happen.

I am glad that I kept day dreaming  about it.
Perhaps  that's  the way I  projected  that divine
Interference to be part of my life, it  is a privilege
To welcome you in to my life I never knew that
Such a power could exist until the day I embraced-it

I am longing for my mother, lord! she is with you
Take care of my Mama, she is in my heart for ever
I know that I am in the Presence of a divine power
Who would support me and make my life more complete
than I ever dreamt it could be. Thank you God.


I turned to you for trust, and you give it openly to me
I look to you for hope, and faith, and you give me the
Answers , encouragement , inspiration, when I am down
You lift my spirit  up and take my thoughts to places
Where my troubles seems so much further away,
Tomorrows  golden Rule. will be to my life,  not to  memory's;

YB

March 7 2013

The value of love

If  I  know  what is the value of love
It's because I  never been lucky to know love
Perhaps as a child,  I felt love.  and that is the
Reason for the survivor instinct in me.

I am walking through the journey of my life
with my thoughts reflecting the loving
 Hopes of my heart

If  I know what loves value is, it's because
I dreamt about it, wished for gentle fillings ,
My thoughts of being loved are my mornings
Inspiration and my night's comfort.

They  take me up above  the staff that clouds
Parts of my life, when ever I  think of love,
I dream of happy moments  in  the past , present,
And  the  future, which will bring me closer

To my wish to be loved,  a fantasy  come true.
My own day dreams, marvellous richness, of the soul.
Full of joy, that most people will ever dream of.
my Private  fantasy,  with my chosen people around me.

My heart will be a place for comfort, all around
my Eyes a window to my soul, all can look at and trust.
My spirit welcoming all who deserve it.
My hands to reach out for all who needs, a heart
That understand, and doesn't judge...

3 march 2013

YB

Could I package faith

Somehow, out of all what I experiment in my  life
All the opportunity's of each day that could
have slowly shaped my life as dripping water
Shapes the stone  

Could I package faith

God have send my way a lot of them, I have
 Missed It all. courage makes everything looks clear
It almost seems like I was given a meant to be
Moment when everything felt clear and calm
The day I choose to live my X the abuser..


That turned out to mean the world to my self esteem.
To the one person I consider to be my care giver Me...
The most wonderful of all things in life is LOVE...
Of family, children, loved ones. whom one can
Have a  relationship of trust, the  privilege of having


Them in your life to share a glowing, depth, beauty,
And joy. perhaps in  one of  my  future life's...
Mr God I'm so often at a loss of finding  words,
To tell you how much I am disappointed in the path,
I have taken, in my imagination I wish for sunshine.
And  package of faith...

Y B

24 Feb; 2013

That child in me

Where my loveliest dreams go.

Inside of my heart there is a place,
Where my loveliest dreams reside.
Where my highest hopes and faith
Are kept alive. where my deepest
Feelings are born, and where my
Favourite memories and sad ones
 Are tucked away for life...


That little girl in me is A  power In my  life...
For as long as my heart is ticking , she will
Be a lasting source of life for me.
Only the most special people in my world
Will be welcome  Inside my heart, And for life
They will reside in my spirit and soul.
They will be part of my world.


And every time I get in touch with my
Hopes, my feelings, my faith, my spirit
Or  my memories, the good the bad and
 The ugly. I realise how deeply my life
Has been touched by my inner child.
She is the bright spot in my Heart!


January 16 2013

Y B

Invisible soul mate

Feed me my dreams











Take me along with you. feed me my dreams.

As I fall in behind you, in you, all over you.

Take me out of my self, shake me, unsettle me.

Set me down to follow, a new path, a new direction.

  

But please leave my heart as it is.be a tender part.

Of my dreams, imagination, and a peaceful moment

Let me give you my love, my passion, my warmth
Let me crawl inside your heart, your spirit,  and soul...


 

Y B  Feb; 10 2013

written 21 of may 1998

A friend I have never seen

To a friend I have never seen

A friend I have never seen.
Thanks for your friendship,


I have never met you, yet I know you.
When I confronted sadness, felt misfortune, and defeat, you told me that I am brave.

You are the poster boy of loyalty. All  the love you give in your life springs from the love you knew as a child! Obviously you knew a lot of love for you give it with your heart and spirit, with generosity and kindness.

You couldn't take away the pain I had in my heart, but you brought a glowing light of true friendship into my heart.

Every day I have your friendship is a gift. In my life,  if I have had a wish for a true friend, I got me one.

This friendship makes me happy and wise.

Thanks for your GIFT.

January 13 2013

Y.B.

when it rains look for the rainbow

Faith can place light in the darkest hearts

For love is strong as death,
Harsh as the grave,
His tongues are flames,
A fierce and Holy blaze.
Endless Seas and floods.
Forest's and rivers never put out,
Love is Infinite Fire.

(Song of Songs)

How magical!

Where do we find the one worthy of that kind of love? We are told to love generously and we will be loved back. Give generously, it will come back to us generously. We should have the courage of superheroes in this life.

We become superheroes. We tried looking up and down, searching for the rainbow, watching out for the rainbow, praying for a rainbow... Perhaps it is best not to expect anything back. Life will be much happier, our hearts brighter, and our spirit freer....

Y.B.
10 January 2013

The golden tread between loving hearts

                                    

I love you my girl child!




When you are a mother, you are walking with your heart outside your body every day of your life.
Every day of my life, in the last thirty years, my
Heart was a dry land,  a dead desert, for my only girl was absent from my life...  Nothing in my life was more thrilling than the day she was born...
And now she is back, and I am very happy, and grateful. She is wonderful,  trying really hard to make up for times lost.

Sweet girl of mine, thank you! I love you. I hope you know that I too am trying very hard. It is not easy for both of us, the anger is eating at me so this is a good time and place to say to my girl.

To you dearest child of mine: I am sorry if I am putting pressure on you. I want you to know that I acknowledge your efforts and how hard you are trying. Me too, sweet girl. I am trying, I would love us to make our relationship work.

Thank you. I love you and I am blessed that you opened your heart and soul to me and invited me to your world... Thanks. I love you, my child, for that...

May God help us both to make a go of it. Sweet heart, I am so proud of you. You are a great mother and an amazing wife, a fantastic teacher and a wonderful friend.

Please be kind to yourself: listen to your body and let me be your mom! I miss it. I love you. Let me care for you.

8 January 2013

YB

A Let love gide your life



Let love guide you

 

SOMETIMES AN ACT OF KINDNES

Happens in a flash

But the memory of it

Can last a lifetime




Thanks baby! for calling me!

   love  Mom
Y B
January 13 2013

MY Healing Dream with Ardi my Baby.

A! for life I am the only mother
 you going to have

I had a healing dream with my baby, and I am looking straight into my baby's eyes.
You are my baby, and I am your Mama! Don't ever forget that Little One. 
Your sparkling eyes speak to me worthy talk.

The power of our sharing will hold till death. After all we are a mother and son! Speak to me, my boy! In my heart it rains. My eyes are dried. No more rain, I shed all of my tears. My boy has come from afar. With a phone call he took my heart. Along your first steps I knew that my love, for always,
will be yours,  my son.

I know that  I have to forgive my boy. And I am telling you in my dream: how am I to do that? And you replied, with a smile. Do not think of it, as do I deserve to be forgiven?
Ask yourself: do I deserve to be the one who always forgives?

The answer is "yes". Living in forgiveness means letting go of misery, pain, anger, getting rid of the  wounds of the heart and spirit. Then celebrate the opening of a door through which happiness, joy, and a clear vision, will enter.

Thanks, sweet son my  baby!

That was my healing dream...


January 7 2013

YB