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| I am tired chasing the impossible dream |
My righting, it was important to you that
no one will know who my son is. you said to me
I am well known I don't want people to get to
Know my dirty laundry, but you know who you are!
It is O.K. by you to do wrong to your mother,
As long as people would not know it. is it all about you?
What a set of values you have been thought!
Just because I asked for your phone number
So I cane keep in touch with you my son.
You mad me regret the minute, how cruel are you?
to make me feel so much pain and revolt. the inside
Of my heart ! Curled tightly with pain, like a uterus
Anxious to give birth. and you, no mercy! no heart!
My baby boy how can he be so cruel?
And now in this midnight, when desperately
I am in agony, in need of care, I realise my life
Depends on me! only me ! I must speak to
You with words that you can understand,
I am giving you this words with regret, I can't
Let you pain me anymore with your arrogance, and hate.
I can no longer look at the ferry tell wish of having
A relation with my Son baby.
You Don't want to have one . in your word,
only on your terms you will have one.
You want let me have your phone number, or email.
I am not allowed to contact you , or email you.
Only you can contact me. toughs were your conditions!
You want to treat me as if I am virus , or a bacterial
Disease, that could make you sick. sweet baby
The only disease I have I am Jewish mother and proud of-it.
So let me make-it easy on you dearest son ,
For my broken heart can't and want allow you
To abuse me, or brake my heart anymore.
It is my life, my spirit and soul. I have to take care of!
you are playing with my emotions, it is my heart you
Are shredding to peace's. it is a matter of my survival.
For me your mother, moving through your world
As you want me to. it will be like moving motionless
Trough a bad dream.
That is not what I had in mind when I give you life.
Yesterday you taught me what is to be a nothing!
To you. in your Eyes I may be a nothing but in my
Eyes I am very valuable, worthy , and special human!
All the tears in the world can drop down my chicks,
And you want see them or feel them, to much hate!
In your heart. you can run from your reality but
You cant hide!
when a son has love in his heart! he learns how to
Appreciate and respect all other human being.
That includes his mother even if she is Jewish,
at the same time he also learns to understand
Himself better.
SON ! you have a long way to go. you need help.
This will be the last time you bleed my heart, yet again!
I guess you will have to do without me in your life
unless you change your attitude towards me! !!
5 July 2013
Y.B
