Between Darkness & Light

I hate Passover!

Between darkness and light

My soul flows 

I shale have faith I shale believe

In tomorrow the light will shine

Even if it feels so dark as If the night

Black sky Is raping his darkness around

My Heart! It is so painful ! If God can only 

 Bring Some light in to my dark world!!

Oh Mom I MISS you SO! 

There are so many tears in my Heart!

Never allowed them to reach my eye's 

All I want is peace of mind and heart!

GOD Is that to much to beg for?

I don't want to stay in this pool

Of pain each day I beg God

Lay of of me!! give me a happy

Dream A visit to heaven! with my

 Mom! I miss having her in my life.

I miss her deep love , Dam! you God

For taking my teacher my protector

And the only one who ever LOVED ME!

I am Gods child too, your child !

And I am In need of your help!

GOD!

I never heard the words my mom haid said 

But Instead I heard the love for me

In her WORDS! I miss you

MAMA HANNAH!

YB. 

             

22/4/2017 

   

Generosity is giving more than you can!

I am under water and I don't swim

For all times I Thoth  that Generosity

Compassion. Honesty, Loyalty, love!

Was what makes the world A Beautiful

Place. but soon I realized only if we

Keep giving A Basket full of those 

Attributes To all around us! giving 

 Of me at the dawn of  my life. I had nothing 

Left to give! when  reality set in and I 

 Could not help but let my heart cry 

For what was left of me! under water and 

CAN'T SWIM!

 I can't anymore  Ignore  my heart wishes

 For Love, family, compassion, and respect.

I realized the only one who would give  

That to me would be Me! Love is love reflected!! 

It is taking me the whole of my life to learn

How to expected ! I am afraid the dawn is coming! 

AND I DIDN'T get it!!!

YB.            3/3/2017

How Do I Maned My Broken Heart?

How do you maned A broken Heart? 

With Glue! will never  work!

Begin the journey by deciding

To make changes within ME!

With in my Heart.

Believe That my Children 

Are not worthy to have me as a 

Mother! perhaps they would have

Been happier with some one like there

Low life  father! who poisoned them.

Against anything JEWISH! 

With time I will heal!

YB.    25/2/2017   

How do you close the Door ??

Fire within.

The one who has no fire within can

Never warm up others! I have been

A fiery strong  women for to long!

So it is OK to give myself permission

To cry sometimes. for the pain I endured!

I have don a lot of work on my self to heal
Along the way I changed  how ever the

Memory's of my children never changed.

I do not understand how can a child wake

Up one day and decide his Mother never

EXISTED!

It is so hard for me to give up the hope
On the Dream!

That perhaps one of this days they will be back!
In my life!

How ever it is much harder giving up on the dream

 knowing that it is the only thing I ever wished 

FOR!!
How do I close the door?

 IS IT  ONLY A DREAM  OR A NIGHTMARE??  

YB.     1/2/2017

       

I am a JEW! and proud!!

I'm a JEW! and PROUD!

It is not that God doe's not speak to

 Begot and antisemitic criminals.

They just do not listen!   

I as a Jewish Mother that lost three CHILDREN

To an Arab Father, and a bunch of Academia!

 Proudly will Cary this star of David in my Heart

Until the last breath I will take. 

With love and  high  Hopes will

Walk with my Head UP  High.

I have no Tolerant for Bigotry

 Even if it is coming from my Children

The ones I have given life too

My three children that Shun me     

Brain washed by an Arab Father 

And  the Academia! 

They where suppose to get high 

Education they got Brain washed !

I must thank the university of Toronto

Dollhouse, Colombia university, and

Carlton university the Cambridge university UK.

And the UNITED NATION the bunch

Of Antisemitic Criminals!!!

You helped an Arab Father teach hatred

And Antisemitism with your own hatred

And Bigotry toward ISRAEL! and the JEWS!!  

What can I say  As a Mom that lost

Three Children

May God forgive you.

YB.         30/1/2017

     

I am A Miracle!

Miracle!

I see God in all things

In my blooming Garden in the Spring and summer

In my Snowy  world in the winter!

In my colorful Garden in the fall!

Life is full of Miracles!

The Season's, Nature space!

The Animal kingdom! 

Day and night!

Happiness Sadness  Joyfulness Anger!

Kindness Charity!  

LOVE ! hate!

All are part of our Miracle!

Let us embrace our SELVES!

It is all part of our MIRACLE!!

YB.

          

26/1/2017

       

Ardi Imseis and Shirel pegios No More Silencing your Mother!!!

Jerusalem of gold! the Jewish capital of ISRAEL!

Silence no more!

If I wan't speak up for myself it

Will cost me pieces of my heart

The longer I allow you to silence me 

The more broken heart pieces I

Will have to maned! Ardi Imseis and Shirel pegios

You may think that your Mother is

Stupid for loving you and keep

 Hopping that one of this days you 

 Realize how cruel you are for denouncing

Me just for being Jewish! find a mirror

And stand in front of it

The face looking back at you is JEWISH too!

Keeping my mouth shot  so you  can keep year 

After year Abusing me takes a toll on my soul!

I am going to be true to my feelings,

I will not cover up your nasty deed 

LET THE WORLD KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

Shirel I do not think that you can teach children 

Moral values!

And Ardi I do not think that you can preach the world

On Human Rights!

PERHAPS THE UNITED NATION STANDARD

JEWS AND ISRAEL HEATERS!

  ANTISEMITIC BUNCH OF CRIMINALS!! 

YB.         25/1/2017   

The Key To My Soul's Harmony!

Harmony

My joy emerges when the sound of a Violin

takes over my soul, sadness wanes with the 

Sounds of  The harmony I embrace the love

Of music I embrace the light it brings up to 

My world. It Illuminate my feelings It feeds

My soul with  the most vibrant Joy to my being 

 You Do not need  to see the violin to hear the music

Or the harmony! only have faith that the music of

Your Soul is  PLAYING!!

YB.         21/1/2017

Season of Light!

Season of light!

May this wonderful season of light

Be filled with warmth, joy, and tradition

For my little girl the child within

Wishing you love peace and harmony

And shining light.

YB.

1/5/2017 

Angels and poetry.

Angels poetry to my soul

Angels come in to one's life in all forms! 

Angels come in all shapes

Angels come in all colors.

They don't fall out of the sky

They are residing in your heart.

They are the music of your soul. 

They are your guiding light they lift you out of

Your cage  to a larger freedom.

They sparkle your spirit with 

heavenly light!

And when that Angel reminds me

 Even for an instant of my own 

Journey home in to my lightest self

My Angel caused a miracle within my

Heart, spirit, and soul.

That is the grates poetry ever known to my soul!!  

YB.

11/15/2016

This lonely Night

This lonely night

Chill infiltrated in the Moon light

It entered in to the golden silvery

Bright light, the sky is shining bright

The moon is glowing all by her lonely.

The Stars are playing hide and sick  

In the dark, no twinkles In this lonely night!

For one single bright Star !the glow is magic.

 My Mom!

In haven Smiling  upon my world!

With lots of LOVE.

YB. 

18/10/2016  

Autumn night

Autumn night's are so serene,and very beautiful.

They reflect charm, and welcome Nostalgia and sadness.

Night's are longer, day's shorter, nostalgia of Autumn.

Hurt's my Poet's heart. for the people around my heart

Are simply playing the game of words .

Throwing the words that hurt's  my way   

The Pain unbearable!

At time much more than a bleeding cut 

Words that broke my heart! many times over.

That Pain  for ever  in my heart and soul

Are berried. never to be forgotten!

The power of word's is huge,

So dearest friends!!  use them with care

For some one may be hurt!! 

BY YOU!

YB.       17/10/2016

The Golden Voice Of The Heart

The Golden Voice Of My Heart

What darkens life's memory's is no memory's!

What brightens life memory's is creating more memory's

Build them in to your history,tuck them in your heart.

The holiday is for ever not welcome in my home for

It is very difficult to celebrate being sick and alone .

That is a memory too. tomorrow will shine

All is well! happy Jewish new year

Child! get well.   

  

 10/10/2016 

YB.

Ardi My Body was your first home !

Baby Ardi!  

Your first resident my Body

Your first sound of music my heart beat.

your first massage my hand caressing the baby inside me
YOU! YOU! YOU!

Your big Sister used to sing lullaby to you

thous  where the days when you loved your mom 

Before Poisson was implanted in your heart and soul 

I wish you can listen with a receptive heart to this words.

Baby A! if you know about the power of a generous heart,

You will not let a single moment pass without giving

 To your mother the pleasure to get to know her grandchildren,

Your Baby's before it will be to let! 

YB.

5/09/2016

All that begins will END!

A miracle in my garden. 

If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly

Our whole. life would change.

Our hearts will be untroubled

Full with kindness and compassion

In times of difficulty we shale take

Refuge in that compassion and TRUTH

Walk in truth, listen with a receptive heart .

Let your kindness rain on all.

And remember for always

Everything  that has a beginning

Will have an END! 

So whatever path I will take

 will be the truth!!

28/08/2016

YB.

MY Reflection!

Some times I wonder what is my shadow telling me

It tells me I wish to help you realize how special you are.

I wish you  could see yourself at any form your heart desires

Stand In front of a pool of steel water, and see the replica

 Of your awesome  beauty I am powerful for you   .

My face is your face 

 I could be any one you want me to be

I could be your Mom just as you remember her

Your grandma, all and every one you ever loved and lost

Tap on your wishing well  walk in a field full of blooming flowers.

I give you comfort, I am your best friend  me is you   U is me

I love your imagination your big heart your acceptance

Of what ever God sends your way . I will be happy to be 

What ever you my dear CHILD want me to be.

I AM YOU AND YOU ARE ME!

YB.     20/08/2016 

Ignore loss and the memory of what you lost cannot be retrieved.

In all the times that I trusted I mad my sun turn dark

In all the times that I loved I put my sun in jeopardy

For all the days that I sacrificed , got in return zero.

But God surprised me with the gift of hope.

That mad my stars bright.

I steel am short of believing in the world around

So much sorrow,  sadness, and heartache 

It is so hard for me to believe that dreams

Really  Can come true, please God

 look at me .

Fill my heart with SMILES.

Rather than with tears.

If only because my heart 

Is so full of pain.

I know that happiness

 Is worth having

SEND-IT MY WAY!!

YB.      7/8/2016   

True love Mothers love!

 Our true love, the keystone of the core of our hearts.

The Angel who birth us. she is the force element of

OUR life. in her sparkling Eyes  the light is always

Shining as the way the light of a lighthouse

In a stormy night.

Cradles us comforting us nine months you carried

Us, raised us  like flowers in your heart, you are the star

Of  all that was good in me. you planted in my 

Young innocent heart integrity, and wisdom.

With your inside of words.

You planted in me courage encouragement and 

And hope, your pure love shined up my path.

Helped me to believe in me! your love is the most

Precious of my  assets. I miss your love  dearest Mom.

I kiss your soul and send you the beats of my heart.

Only with you I would have been completed!

YB.      2016/14/05

My Mother and I...

Mother!

We are together my Mother and I.

Even thou she is long past we are

Together, in my heart, in my mind

Mother and I for ever together.

I wish we could have reached the

Point of my adulthood , to become 

Mom and daughter and also best 

Friends.  I miss you dearest of all.

My Mother most precious memory

In my life, most valuable foundation

For  my survival .  someone have asked

A question  WHAT DO GIRLS DO WHO

Haven't a Mother to help them through

Their troubles?

JUST REMEMBER THE LOVING MEMORY'S!!

YB.

Mothers day may 2016

    

True gift is to give a portion of thyself

Life is like an Onion every time you peel of

One layer tears will flow, how long would we 

Weep? for as long as we want to practice to 

A chive happiness.  we need to cleanse 

Our Hearts.

We have sufficient strength to endure the

 Misfortunes of the world around us, we 

Can set a good example .it will be the light

In the path of others. let us use our Hearts

To handle the needy.

Just a smile can be a curve to set a lot 

Of things straight for others.

let us take a moment to take it easy,

 It is being a good FRIEND to our self.

for us to justify the gift of LIFE!

YB.       09/4/2016

What are we living to our CHILDREN..

I guess the most beautiful things in life 

Are the smiles of children that have known

Only tears and heart ache yet they can steel

Smile. the love it brings to the heart it is 

Like nothing we can ever dream to see.

A true feeling of heaven upon Earth 

To the soul. each day we come together

 In some way around the world about 

Something . I am just wanting to ask all

Of humanity when shall the day come

That our children and the world that we

 Are living to them will become the 

Most important of all issues we face?

We are able to save lives only if we 

get our hearts all come together ,

Together we can WIN!

YB .    4/4/ 2016

The voice of the mind silence.

Spring is around the corner,I will make sure

To note the opening of the flowers bloom..

glorious moments wetting for me when life

 Around  will awakes . with it comes the beauty,

The confidence,  the knowledge and certainty 

 About  the cycle of life it is the pause of The 

Soul! it is the moment of wonder and satisfaction

It is the silence.

Those  who have passed through the silence,

And felt its peace , they retained its strength, 

They long that the whole world shall pass

 Through it also . what an amazing seance of

 Peace  ! that is the only place where the mind

will hear the silence.

There for I say may peace be with all of us.

And may we bloom like the gardens of all

 The souls in heaven .and on EARTH!

May we have SHALOM! PEACE!

On Earth!

YB.3/4/2016

  

Angels within!

Our Angels don't fall out of the sky, 

They emerge from within our heart.

Our Angel may be likened to great 

Poetry. they will lift the soul out of its

Cage of limitations.they will return your 

Heart to a reflection of serenity, freer self.

They  bemuse  your spirit with sparkling

Light the raptures of Heaven. and when

Our Angel reminds us, for even an instant,

Of our own journey, our path of origin.

Our highest self, it has caused a miracle 

Within us. and that is the greatest Poetry!

EVER KNOWN TO THE SOUL,

IT IS EVERYTHING!

YB.   2/4/2016

LOVE YOU!

Love you too!

Love  you too,  my Belafonte.

My pappy . we spend 14 years together

And now he is gone like all around me.

I was told that Joy emerges where sadness wanes.

I shall seek out the joyful moment's

with my beautiful friend Omega-Jordan.

I miss you my dearest friend!

YB.   30/3/2016

How you earn inner PEACE!

Loving you is how you earn peace!

Rekindle your own perfect relationship

With the most precious, innocent, powerful,

Graceful  light within your heart. when you feel

One with it , you will feel oneness with all of you.

When ever possible open the door to your heart

And feel your own  heart beat   tap on  your graceful

 Feeling the rood to your own inner heaven. 

It is your highest and most precious right.

 Once you achieve that you claimed the path

To happiness. 

No one can make you turn back once you do!!

Be your own ANGEL!

YB.     26/3/2016

To my inner child with love!

How I admire your courage! you have the unique

Ability to take chances and to seek out new path.

Others might feel fear, you feel excitement.

And a rush of hope and positive energy. 

I dwell in your shadow and I am

filled with pride of you little girl

 Of Me!

As we move together through our path

I always wonder how are we going to stand

to all the surprises we are going to encounter.

But you sweet child in me for ever is my power

To stand tall to all . I cherish your strong belief

That your world is a friendly place.

For Us.

Just full of challenges. There are very few

Fears left for us . we will deal with them

In our  own time. I know that  I trust your

Awesome intuition, you will never let us

 Down my beautiful little inner child.  I am

PROUD OF US!!

YB.    24/3/2016

Honesty and Venerability !

Honesty

There is honesty in nature. we can learn so much from

All around us,small and big creatures, they use instinct 

For all directions, Observe a child closely and discover the

Beauty and meaning of Honesty!

Did you ever watched an injured animal how he curls up 

Inside   its home and stays quiet. a child will circle in 

His Mothers arms and feel better, that is the face

Of venerability, and intuition

they Waite for recovery. they know that they

 Must be patient sometimes the healing takes time.  

So as we, when you feel down retrieve your power

By being Honest with you.

Learn from nature and little children , Stop for

Now allow your self as a whole to mend

Silence and warmth is your friend now.

Love yourself now! hugs as your Mom 

Will be doing, 

Allow nothing to disturb your thoughts.

 In a little while you will feel strong again 

you will be helping your heart with recovery,

Share your complete honesty with your need

Love you as your Mother will!

YB.     23/3/2016 

One Early Morning.

 

One early morning I sat in the hot tub's of Eselen .

I watched the Moon rise high into the sky just as

The sun began to spill above the horizon. I gazed

straight up into the sky still sparkling with stars,

I lowered my Eyes to include the ocean.

 What a magnificent sight! looking at the wells

on their way to Alaska.

 

 

It is if the two opposites of night and day have

Merged just for a moment in time, that is when I felt

Suspended between the two, what an awesome feeling

When all is quieter and serene. only I and my God!

Listening to the music of the waves. crashing across

 The rocks and sand, the change happen so fast.

Hear I am with God observing the calm,

The storm, day and night!

 

 

Thank you God for allowing me the privilege

Of sharing with me this master  beauty.

And just when the sun began its climb

And the Moon disappeared and the stars no more

There is a apace between where you feel everything

And nothing ,a time when you choose witch

 Direction   YOU ARE GOING!

Take control of your innersole and know

Where you are going.

 

 

YB.      19/03/2016.   

Good night Dear Heart.

 

 

Good night dear Heart.

Difficult for you to fall asleep,

I am worried about your resistance to changes .

Nothing stay's the same, all  is  cycles  of transformation's.

 Life of Nature, the season's, your children's, your world,

All of what surround's you. all is changing every moment.

Change requires growth, patience, acceptance, and courage.

It give's us the ability to shape our  life like an Artist with her canvas.

Our life is defined by series of opposites

Youth-old age, birth-death, health-illness, wealth- poverty,

 Joy-sadness, isolation-company!

Change is the necessary ingredient to what we are

And who we are so dear heart I beg of you trust that

Life is Beautiful with all of  the changes in-it.

Go to sleep dear HEART! of mine.

Angel Mom!

 

Dearest Mother what did you leave behind.

What did you leave for your littel girl to remember

You by?A heart full of  memories  of days gon by.

A mind that looks like an Artist canvas

Full of shining stars. thank you Mom.

For being my Mother.

 

 

Dearest Mom; some Mothers barely make their mark

In a whole lifetime, but not you  my dear  Mom.

You have made a difference you impacted 

Your littel girls life in the short five years

We spend together, through counless

Act of love and caring.

 

 

You have left a part of yourself in my aiking

 Heart, to help me remember our moments of love

And laughter. your sweet hugs and tander voice!

My Angel MOM you will keep me going,

You will keep shining my way till the end of time

LOVE YOU MOM!

 

 

YB.   13/3/2016.

 

 

THE VOLTURE!

A vulture! Adam L..

Nothing stay's the same

 I trusted a guy who worked with me.

Big big mistake, never never again.

I trusted him with my life , will never dream

 that he could betrayed me like this!

I trusted a friend,  worked for  me

for 13 years hakes my computer and

Got as low as  to steel all my files

from my computer! how ugly is that? 

  I have committed the

Golden rule of trust and loyalty

But not every one has the moral values,

Apparently he did not. 

 Never again will I trust any one

Professionally again !

YB.       4/3/2016

MY GIRL!

My Girl!

Girl I think the important thing to remember

Right now , is intuition!.

No matter how people respond to your actions.

The only thing that rely matters is your true purpose.

To often people miss the reality of your love,

And genuine caring, they put their own framework around

Your deeds,  and make incorrect interpretations based

Upon their limited knowledge or experience!

How Sade is that

I feel sorry

For them!

YB.     3/3/2016

Why is she smiling/

 

 

I discovert why is that smile so full  of
Mistery , She is warning us all!

The colser you get to Excellence in

Your life, the more friends you'll lose.

People love you when you'r average

Because it makes them comfortable.

 

 

Butt when you pursue greatness it

makes people uncomfortable.

Be prepared to lose some people on

Your Journey. just keep smiling.
And stand tall to your belive.

 

 

 

YB.   2/3/2016.