Between Darkness & Light

I hate Passover!

Between darkness and light

My soul flows 

I shale have faith I shale believe

In tomorrow the light will shine

Even if it feels so dark as If the night

Black sky Is raping his darkness around

My Heart! It is so painful ! If God can only 

 Bring Some light in to my dark world!!

Oh Mom I MISS you SO! 

There are so many tears in my Heart!

Never allowed them to reach my eye's 

All I want is peace of mind and heart!

GOD Is that to much to beg for?

I don't want to stay in this pool

Of pain each day I beg God

Lay of of me!! give me a happy

Dream A visit to heaven! with my

 Mom! I miss having her in my life.

I miss her deep love , Dam! you God

For taking my teacher my protector

And the only one who ever LOVED ME!

I am Gods child too, your child !

And I am In need of your help!

GOD!

I never heard the words my mom haid said 

But Instead I heard the love for me

In her WORDS! I miss you

MAMA HANNAH!

YB. 

             

22/4/2017 

   

Generosity is giving more than you can!

I am under water and I don't swim

For all times I Thoth  that Generosity

Compassion. Honesty, Loyalty, love!

Was what makes the world A Beautiful

Place. but soon I realized only if we

Keep giving A Basket full of those 

Attributes To all around us! giving 

 Of me at the dawn of  my life. I had nothing 

Left to give! when  reality set in and I 

 Could not help but let my heart cry 

For what was left of me! under water and 

CAN'T SWIM!

 I can't anymore  Ignore  my heart wishes

 For Love, family, compassion, and respect.

I realized the only one who would give  

That to me would be Me! Love is love reflected!! 

It is taking me the whole of my life to learn

How to expected ! I am afraid the dawn is coming! 

AND I DIDN'T get it!!!

YB.            3/3/2017

How Do I Maned My Broken Heart?

How do you maned A broken Heart? 

With Glue! will never  work!

Begin the journey by deciding

To make changes within ME!

With in my Heart.

Believe That my Children 

Are not worthy to have me as a 

Mother! perhaps they would have

Been happier with some one like there

Low life  father! who poisoned them.

Against anything JEWISH! 

With time I will heal!

YB.    25/2/2017   

How do you close the Door ??

Fire within.

The one who has no fire within can

Never warm up others! I have been

A fiery strong  women for to long!

So it is OK to give myself permission

To cry sometimes. for the pain I endured!

I have don a lot of work on my self to heal
Along the way I changed  how ever the

Memory's of my children never changed.

I do not understand how can a child wake

Up one day and decide his Mother never

EXISTED!

It is so hard for me to give up the hope
On the Dream!

That perhaps one of this days they will be back!
In my life!

How ever it is much harder giving up on the dream

 knowing that it is the only thing I ever wished 

FOR!!
How do I close the door?

 IS IT  ONLY A DREAM  OR A NIGHTMARE??  

YB.     1/2/2017

       

I am a JEW! and proud!!

I'm a JEW! and PROUD!

It is not that God doe's not speak to

 Begot and antisemitic criminals.

They just do not listen!   

I as a Jewish Mother that lost three CHILDREN

To an Arab Father, and a bunch of Academia!

 Proudly will Cary this star of David in my Heart

Until the last breath I will take. 

With love and  high  Hopes will

Walk with my Head UP  High.

I have no Tolerant for Bigotry

 Even if it is coming from my Children

The ones I have given life too

My three children that Shun me     

Brain washed by an Arab Father 

And  the Academia! 

They where suppose to get high 

Education they got Brain washed !

I must thank the university of Toronto

Dollhouse, Colombia university, and

Carlton university the Cambridge university UK.

And the UNITED NATION the bunch

Of Antisemitic Criminals!!!

You helped an Arab Father teach hatred

And Antisemitism with your own hatred

And Bigotry toward ISRAEL! and the JEWS!!  

What can I say  As a Mom that lost

Three Children

May God forgive you.

YB.         30/1/2017

     

Ardi Imseis and Shirel pegios No More Silencing your Mother!!!

Jerusalem of gold! the Jewish capital of ISRAEL!

Silence no more!

If I wan't speak up for myself it

Will cost me pieces of my heart

The longer I allow you to silence me 

The more broken heart pieces I

Will have to maned! Ardi Imseis and Shirel pegios

You may think that your Mother is

Stupid for loving you and keep

 Hopping that one of this days you 

 Realize how cruel you are for denouncing

Me just for being Jewish! find a mirror

And stand in front of it

The face looking back at you is JEWISH too!

Keeping my mouth shot  so you  can keep year 

After year Abusing me takes a toll on my soul!

I am going to be true to my feelings,

I will not cover up your nasty deed 

LET THE WORLD KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

Shirel I do not think that you can teach children 

Moral values!

And Ardi I do not think that you can preach the world

On Human Rights!

PERHAPS THE UNITED NATION STANDARD

JEWS AND ISRAEL HEATERS!

  ANTISEMITIC BUNCH OF CRIMINALS!! 

YB.         25/1/2017   

Autumn night

Autumn night's are so serene,and very beautiful.

They reflect charm, and welcome Nostalgia and sadness.

Night's are longer, day's shorter, nostalgia of Autumn.

Hurt's my Poet's heart. for the people around my heart

Are simply playing the game of words .

Throwing the words that hurt's  my way   

The Pain unbearable!

At time much more than a bleeding cut 

Words that broke my heart! many times over.

That Pain  for ever  in my heart and soul

Are berried. never to be forgotten!

The power of word's is huge,

So dearest friends!!  use them with care

For some one may be hurt!! 

BY YOU!

YB.       17/10/2016

The Golden Voice Of The Heart

The Golden Voice Of My Heart

What darkens life's memory's is no memory's!

What brightens life memory's is creating more memory's

Build them in to your history,tuck them in your heart.

The holiday is for ever not welcome in my home for

It is very difficult to celebrate being sick and alone .

That is a memory too. tomorrow will shine

All is well! happy Jewish new year

Child! get well.   

  

 10/10/2016 

YB.

Ardi My Body was your first home !

Baby Ardi!  

Your first resident my Body

Your first sound of music my heart beat.

your first massage my hand caressing the baby inside me
YOU! YOU! YOU!

Your big Sister used to sing lullaby to you

thous  where the days when you loved your mom 

Before Poisson was implanted in your heart and soul 

I wish you can listen with a receptive heart to this words.

Baby A! if you know about the power of a generous heart,

You will not let a single moment pass without giving

 To your mother the pleasure to get to know her grandchildren,

Your Baby's before it will be to let! 

YB.

5/09/2016

Ignore loss and the memory of what you lost cannot be retrieved.

In all the times that I trusted I mad my sun turn dark

In all the times that I loved I put my sun in jeopardy

For all the days that I sacrificed , got in return zero.

But God surprised me with the gift of hope.

That mad my stars bright.

I steel am short of believing in the world around

So much sorrow,  sadness, and heartache 

It is so hard for me to believe that dreams

Really  Can come true, please God

 look at me .

Fill my heart with SMILES.

Rather than with tears.

If only because my heart 

Is so full of pain.

I know that happiness

 Is worth having

SEND-IT MY WAY!!

YB.      7/8/2016   

How you earn inner PEACE!

Loving you is how you earn peace!

Rekindle your own perfect relationship

With the most precious, innocent, powerful,

Graceful  light within your heart. when you feel

One with it , you will feel oneness with all of you.

When ever possible open the door to your heart

And feel your own  heart beat   tap on  your graceful

 Feeling the rood to your own inner heaven. 

It is your highest and most precious right.

 Once you achieve that you claimed the path

To happiness. 

No one can make you turn back once you do!!

Be your own ANGEL!

YB.     26/3/2016

To my inner child with love!

How I admire your courage! you have the unique

Ability to take chances and to seek out new path.

Others might feel fear, you feel excitement.

And a rush of hope and positive energy. 

I dwell in your shadow and I am

filled with pride of you little girl

 Of Me!

As we move together through our path

I always wonder how are we going to stand

to all the surprises we are going to encounter.

But you sweet child in me for ever is my power

To stand tall to all . I cherish your strong belief

That your world is a friendly place.

For Us.

Just full of challenges. There are very few

Fears left for us . we will deal with them

In our  own time. I know that  I trust your

Awesome intuition, you will never let us

 Down my beautiful little inner child.  I am

PROUD OF US!!

YB.    24/3/2016

Good night Dear Heart.

 

 

Good night dear Heart.

Difficult for you to fall asleep,

I am worried about your resistance to changes .

Nothing stay's the same, all  is  cycles  of transformation's.

 Life of Nature, the season's, your children's, your world,

All of what surround's you. all is changing every moment.

Change requires growth, patience, acceptance, and courage.

It give's us the ability to shape our  life like an Artist with her canvas.

Our life is defined by series of opposites

Youth-old age, birth-death, health-illness, wealth- poverty,

 Joy-sadness, isolation-company!

Change is the necessary ingredient to what we are

And who we are so dear heart I beg of you trust that

Life is Beautiful with all of  the changes in-it.

Go to sleep dear HEART! of mine.

Angel Mom!

 

Dearest Mother what did you leave behind.

What did you leave for your littel girl to remember

You by?A heart full of  memories  of days gon by.

A mind that looks like an Artist canvas

Full of shining stars. thank you Mom.

For being my Mother.

 

 

Dearest Mom; some Mothers barely make their mark

In a whole lifetime, but not you  my dear  Mom.

You have made a difference you impacted 

Your littel girls life in the short five years

We spend together, through counless

Act of love and caring.

 

 

You have left a part of yourself in my aiking

 Heart, to help me remember our moments of love

And laughter. your sweet hugs and tander voice!

My Angel MOM you will keep me going,

You will keep shining my way till the end of time

LOVE YOU MOM!

 

 

YB.   13/3/2016.

 

 

MY GIRL!

My Girl!

Girl I think the important thing to remember

Right now , is intuition!.

No matter how people respond to your actions.

The only thing that rely matters is your true purpose.

To often people miss the reality of your love,

And genuine caring, they put their own framework around

Your deeds,  and make incorrect interpretations based

Upon their limited knowledge or experience!

How Sade is that

I feel sorry

For them!

YB.     3/3/2016

That think I call Intuition! it is my soul I trust-it.

 

 

When someone undermines my Dream,

Predicts my doom, or criticizes me

in any way , all I have to do is

Remembering ,that they're are

Telling me their story, not mine

 

 

I have the auwsome power

To say this is not how my story

Will end. I will look in all direction's

To find my golden  brick road I

Will never forget where I come from.

 

And hopfuly for  ever will know,
Where am I going. Littel girl
Respect  yourself enough to walk
Away from anything that no longer
Serves you or makes you happy...

YB.  28/02/2016


Yes I am a Women.

 

Yes I am a women. who knows

That in the depth of the sorrow

To my broken heart,  there is a  women

 I push for opening, with hope and

Simetimes with  anger,  I  clearly say push!

 

 

 why am I pushin so! the night is not for ever.

The light will shine apon all of my path. 

I walk in to a room and forget why

I was there. I count my blassings

On  my fingers , and I have fingers left.

 

 

I hide the pain from my friends .

I say it is a long story, when it's realy not.

I cry a lot,  more that you think I do.

I care about people who don't care about me.

I listen to you , even when you don't

Listen to me. just a littel hug A hug will always help...

 

Yes I am a WOMEN!

 

YB.   02/27/2016

 

  

Cast My Burden Upon God.

 

 

It is scary when you are the only child,

To think that one day you are going to have

To live without your  Mother, Father,Brother

Or Sister, OR family Or that one day you

Are going to have to walk this earth without

Any one on your side, appreciate your self

Love life . have Manners, Morals,Respect,

Have Character,Common sense,

Trust, have Patience. because  no one

Is going to be hear for ever.

 

You are Class you are

INTEGRITY!

LOVE

& JOY

 

 

YB. 21/02/2016

My Grandmother.



 

My grandmother knew what life was about,

No one left her house with anempty belly,

Without getting a hug,

and without hearing her say

I LOVE YOU.

 

She touched the heart and the soul

Of everyone that met her,

but none more so than ME!

 

Her mantra was to those I may have

Wronged I ask for forgivness.

To those I may have helped,

I wish I had don more.

 

To those I neglected to help,

I ask for understanding.

To those who helped me,

I sincerely THANK YOU!

 

YB. 20/02/2016

 

 

 

 

 

 

ONE MOTHER!

 

 

One Mother builds her children's up,

Because she knows what it's like

To be torn down. not knowing

That her children's will

Crush  her heart out!  

 

 One day she finally grasped that

 Unexpected things were always

Going to happen in her life.

And with that she realized

The only control she had

Was how she choose

To Handel them .

 

So she  made the decision to

Survive using courage,

humor and grace.

She was  the Queen

Of her own life.

The choice

Was hers! 

 

YB. 18 02/16