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| I wish I could Ignore loss. Then the memory of what I have lost cannot be retrieved... |
One question is always on my mind, If I had to do it all over. Would I do it? Would I have children? No!
That is a very hard thing for me to admit too, But that is my honest answer. for all the investment that I put in to having
Them, the emotional, and physical abuses I went through with their father and them. I was used as a breeding vessel, a cleaning lady, a chauffeur and bread winner who never got respect from them nor their father nor his family...
My children had an evil teacher, their father, This is my true confession.
I had no reason to continue a miserable marriage, except for my children.
But the time has arrived that I could do it no more. My soul was broken...
I am allowing the world to eavesdrop intensely
On a conversation between me and my heart.
At that point I knew if I had to do it all over again, I will not do it.
I wouldn't have children! The only child I will have would be me.
Perhaps I would have taken care of me, love me, respect me,
And believed in my heart that I deserved every moment of it.
July 7 2012
Y.B
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